“Surviving A House Full Of Whispers” is the second in a trilogy and takes the reader through the second stage of my recovery from a childhood filled with violence, sexual assaults and psychological trauma.
I suffered continual physical and sexual abuse from my mother and stepfather for seven years. Unfortunately, no one would listen to me or believe my accusations. Aged 16, I fled for my life as the night-devil held me captive in my bedroom. I knew if I lost the will to live or fight, he would rape me-or worse. I left the city within a few months with the intentions of never returning.
Faced with society's judgments against me I stood alone with my allegations. The truth is, victims of brutal childhoods or backgrounds don't start to heal when taken from an abusive situation; we only start to digest and relive its emotional content. Many go on to live their lives with tortured souls and an inability to trust and love their own children.
Being called a liar does not make the pictures in your head go away, being disbelieved does not make the pain disappear.
Equally, many of us find the inner child that God intended; we pull that child past the empty adult left by years of mutilation of our childhood souls. I was a no-hoper, unjustly cast out into a world of desolation and loneliness that pulled at my heart like a lead weight. I self-harmed and mutilated parts of my mind and body to try and erase memories.
Eventually, I learned that healing was within me and could never be found under that largest or smallest boulder. I have walked the road of hope and desire and looked into the pool of my future. I did not want to be the mother they had raised, or the wife they had created. Slowly, I started to rebuild my life and my wish is that this book offers the same hope to you.